I read a mindfulness website called Life Unity and on Monday, as always, they announced the task for the week.
It was called Notice Blue. The suggestion is to be aware of Blue for seven days, the colour mainly but perhaps also the mood, the music, the dog
We wanted peace, gentle walks, time to rest and tune into ourselves without cars and noise and concrete and an angry and jealous Duna.
We found somewhere perfect to do all this and more.
Somewhere perfect for Blue to spend the last days of her life
It is green and wooded, set on a plane with mountains in the distance
Every single night the nightingale calls to her friends...... every night!
I found this nestled in the fruit bowl
She looked tired. Slept for hours. Seemed more detached from me and from the world. At other times she was alert as normal. Especially if there was a piece of ham being offered.....
Next day I decided to call the vet. The decision is always 'When?' I spoke to friends and read lots of accounts on the internet, feeling more and more sure that I didn't want to wait till she was unable to move or suffering badly.
The wonderful owners of Sant Nicolau helped me in every possible way, accompanying us through the last hour, offering a place for Blue to rest, digging the grave and sharing a ceremony of goodbye.
It was all peaceful, the vet came in the afternoon and confirmed that it was for the best. Blue was calm and almost dreamy and not at all nervous. It was over in moments and with no fear or pain.
She is now down here at the bottom of the field, just to the right of the little white building on the left.
Bye Bye Blue - you good dog you!